Caught Doing WeedAddictionCaught Doing Weed<div class="ExternalClass88733AA4E80D4DA7A472C8B50B661458"><p><span class="ms-rteFontFace-1 ms-rteFontSize-3">​I just need someone to talk to and ask for advice. I have been messing up a lot with school, and was caught cheating on the final, disappointing my parents. I feel as if I can never be able to bounce back from it. Also, I got involved in the use of marijuana. I began to smoke it, my parents found out and told me to stop. I then got into selling drugs for a short period of time where I got caught and felt miserable. But recently I got caught doing weed again, and I feel like I have no hope. My family have agreed to get me help to break my addiction but I feel like they are so disappointed in me and that I'm never going to be able to earn back their trust. It makes me feel like I don't make them proud anymore.  I just don't feel why I should even be here anymore if I don't have a chance. I'm ruining friendships from it and don't know what to do.​</span></p></div><div class="ExternalClassFC5ABC51F2FC4FEB88E20075C212BE1E"><p><span class="ms-rteFontFace-1 ms-rteFontSize-3">We are glad you decided to reach out for support.  You made a brave and wise decision to seek support when you are having these feelings.  You made the right choice.  It sounds like you are dealing with a lot of feelings of disappointment and guilt.</span> </p><p><span class="ms-rteFontFace-1 ms-rteFontSize-3">Each person has their own individual struggles they must deal with and it sounds like you are dealing with a lot right now with school and your parents.  Some struggles are easier to handle than others to say the least.  If what you are doing is making you feel bad, you should try to find an alternative thing to do that makes you feel happy when you get those urges to use.  Many people, who struggle with some form of addiction, use that addiction to cope in some way.  It may be useful to pay attention to what happens prior to the urges you feel and take notice to any patterns.  Keeping a journal could be useful to do this.  If there is a pattern, it can be easier to learn a new habit when that situation presents itself.  Understanding your triggers and making it a priority to make better, healthier choices to have a better life, is the first step in moving forward.  You are already doing that. </span> </p><p><span class="ms-rteFontFace-1 ms-rteFontSize-3">It can be a challenging task, and will require you to maintain will power, commitment, and follow-through.  It will probably require you to make some life changes including even who you surround yourself with.  You are in control.  You are powerful and capable to live the life you desire.  You mentioned that you felt that you should not be here anymore.  If at any time these thoughts become overwhelming and cause you to feel unsafe, reach out to an adult right away, let them know that you need help with this.</span></p><p><span class="ms-rteFontFace-1 ms-rteFontSize-3">Continue to remind yourself the reasons you want to change this behavior.  Don't let that get lost in day to day life.  Think about what has worked and what hasn't worked.  You have already identified how you have been living is not working for you or bringing positive feelings to your life. </span> </p><p><span class="ms-rteFontFace-1 ms-rteFontSize-3">While you may feel your family is very disappointed in your past decisions, it sounds like they care about you a lot to want to support you and get you the additional support you need to live a happy life and not see addiction be your life.  Even though you are feeling rather miserable for what past decisions you have made, you can in fact change your future.  These moments do not have to define or control your life.  They can simply be just part of your story that helped you grow and choose a more positive and fulfilling path instead.  It's great that you can identify these choices as things you do not want to continue, but you don't need to constantly punish yourself.  Make what you do going forward be what matters.</span> </p><p><span class="ms-rteFontFace-1 ms-rteFontSize-3">We want to be a support for you.  Please reach out to us either by calling 1-800-448-3000, chat, text, or email us back.</span> </p><p><span class="ms-rteFontFace-1 ms-rteFontSize-3">Stay Strong!</span> </p><p><span class="ms-rteFontFace-1 ms-rteFontSize-3">Brittany, Counselor​</span> </p></div>16

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