I Cry Myself To SleepSuicideI Cry Myself To Sleep<div class="ExternalClassD54E1C98B15B4B89AE0A4F29F2209BE1"><p style="font-family:georgia;font-size:16px;">​<span>I'm a teenager in middle school who is beginning to feel depressed constantly. I haven't been myself recently and I don't understand what I'm thinking or feeling. I am 99% sure that I have depression and I've been having sucidal thoughts. I think about it at least twice a day now. I think about how I want to end my life and want to stop breathing. I want to fall asleep and never wake up. It's getting harder to deal with this. I've told one or two of my closest friends who have helped a bit but don't understand what I'm going through. I can't handle this. My family doesn't know and I can't tell them. They are part of the problem and I'd feel horrible telling them. I cry myself to sleep and wake up crying. Please help me </span></p> <span style="font-size:16px;"> </span><span style="font-size:16px;"> </span></div><div class="ExternalClass2554AB2C8D994981861A2975A4AE893A"><div><div class="ExternalClassD54E1C98B15B4B89AE0A4F29F2209BE1"><p class="MsoNormal" style="font-family:tahoma;font-size:16px;"><span>It sounds like you're really struggling.  You have a lot of emotions that are leading you to have suicidal thoughts.  Depressive feelings like this can be caused by stress.  The symptoms that you have described are escalating your thoughts and we are concerned.  Counseling can be very helpful in these situations.  The counselor can teach you how to use coping skills regarding your struggles with your depression and anxiety. We understand that it's hard, but now is the time to ask for help. Not taking care of your mental health can lead to further suicidal thoughts.  When you see a counselor they will build a relationship so they are able to connect with you and help you balance your stress.  Tell an trusted adult (such as a school counselor or parent) about your feelings so they can help you find this kind of help.  You expressed your feelings very well and perhaps it would be easier to show your school counselor or your parents portions of the email that you wrote rather than trying to bring up the topic face to face.</span></p> <span style="font-size:16px;"> </span><span style="font-family:tahoma;font-size:16px;"> </span><p class="MsoNormal" style="font-family:tahoma;font-size:16px;"><font face="calibri, sans-serif"><span style="font-family:tahoma;font-size:16px;">The thought of seeing a counselor can be scary but it doesn't have to be.  If you know what's coming, it takes a lot of the fear out of your first appointment.  Please read the following link, it will help you to know what to expect: </span></font><a href="/Pages/Seeing-A-Counselor.aspx">http://www.yourlifeyourvoice.org/v2/Pages/Seeing-A-Counselor.aspx</a></p> <span style="font-size:16px;"> </span><span style="font-family:tahoma;font-size:16px;"> </span><p class="MsoNormal" style="font-family:tahoma;font-size:16px;"> </p> <span style="font-size:16px;"> </span><span style="font-family:tahoma;font-size:16px;"> </span><p class="MsoNormal" style="font-family:tahoma;font-size:16px;"><span>Please know that suicide is not the answer, the most important thing you can do right now, is to talk to someone about your feelings and keep safe from hurting yourself.  We will be here for you, please call and speak with a counselor right away if you don't think that you will be able to open up about this to an adult in your life.  We want to see you get help and feel better and we will help you through this process. You can find hope and healing.</span><br></p> <span style="font-size:16px;"> </span><span style="font-family:tahoma;font-size:16px;"> </span><p class="MsoNormal" style="font-family:tahoma;font-size:16px;"><span>Take care,</span></p> <span style="font-size:16px;"> </span><span style="font-family:tahoma;font-size:16px;"> </span><p class="MsoNormal" style="font-family:tahoma;font-size:16px;"><span>Nicole, Counselor</span></p> <span style="font-size:16px;"> </span> <span style="font-size:16px;"> </span><span style="font-size:16px;"> </span></div></div> </div>14

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