| I Don't Feel Like Living Anymore | Suicide | I Don't Feel Like Living Anymore | <div class="ExternalClass7CB37D9BB3504D18AAFADA5707E5C360"><p style="font-family:georgia;font-size:16px;"><span>I'</span><span>m an "o</span><span>kay" per</span><span>son when it comes to feelings.</span><span> I'</span><span>m very tough. But once in </span><span>a while or eve</span><span>ry couple months I feel like crying and getting angry at myself. Every</span><span>day I </span><span>think about cutting but</span><span> </span><span>I've never actually do</span><span>ne it. T</span><span>he days I feel my worst (like today) I really do </span><span>have a will</span><span> to pick up a razor and do it so I won't come back. I want to g</span><span>et help but e</span><span>verytime I try telling my family they don't </span><span>understand because I'</span><span>m too embarrassed and anxious to tell them clearly that I don't feel like living anymore. Even if I did tell them, I don't like my doctor. I don't feel like I can share anything with h</span><span>im. My mom would te</span><span>ll me that explaining all of this is just me having a pity</span><span> party for myself. Am I supposed to feel this way? </span></p>
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</span></div> | <div class="ExternalClass64308EB55B1040D7AA1F035989693CD4"><div><div class="ExternalClass7CB37D9BB3504D18AAFADA5707E5C360"><span style="font-family:tahoma;font-size:16px;color:rgb(63, 63, 63);"></span><p class="MsoNormal" style="font-family:tahoma;font-size:16px;color:rgb(63, 63, 63);"><span>We are so glad that you are reaching out. You have a right
to your feelings. You can’t order them up like you would a fast food
meal. Feelings just come and there is no shame in having these
feelings. What is important though – is that you continue to share them
and talk about them, because holding them inside would not be good for you
emotionally or physically and your suicidal thoughts will likely worsen.
It sounds like you are afraid to “say the words” maybe because others will
think you are looking for attention or will not understand. You are
right, you just don’t know what anyone’s reaction might be, but one thing is
for sure – your family and friends would be devastated if they lost you.</span></p>
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</span><p class="MsoNormal" style="font-family:tahoma;font-size:16px;color:rgb(63, 63, 63);"><span>The key is by telling a trusted adult, you can get some help set
up. Maybe it does not have to be with that doctor. Maybe it
can be working with a counselor or talking to a female if you are more
comfortable with that. Be specific though. Tell someone that you
are scared because you are having thoughts of ending your life. Saying
you feel depressed or just off is not enough. The people who care about
you need to know how serious this is.</span><br></p>
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</span><p class="MsoNormal" style="font-family:tahoma;font-size:16px;color:rgb(63, 63, 63);"><span>The cutting you talked about would just be a temporary
fix. You will have ups and downs in your life, so you need coping tools,
not cutting tools, so that you can deal with day to day problems in healthy
ways. Remember, most problems in life can be solved. You have a lot
of life left to live, and it can be a very good one too. Consider us a
part of your support circle. We hope you will call in for some more
support now. </span><br></p>
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</span><p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family:tahoma;font-size:16px;color:rgb(63, 63, 63);"><span>Laura, Crisis Counselor</span></span><br></p>
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