What's The Point?SuicideWhat's The Point?<div class="ExternalClass2FC8E01B10234E9C91455C2151616187"><p><span style="font-family:tahoma;font-size:17.3333px;">Hey I just don’t know what to do anymore. I’ve tried everything to feel happy these past couple of years, and it has become nearly impossible to be happy. I just feel so lost. It’s like I feel so tired and feel so sad all the time. I question everything... my worth, every compliment, every single hug I receive. Every time I feel happy I tell myself, “it’s not going to last long” so why bother getting excited about feeling something other than sad. Ever since that terrible day that I found out that my mom had ended her own life, my life has been horrible. I get all my anger and sadness out through self hatred and self harm, but obviously that isn’t helping... so I’m sitting here arguing with the demons in my head whether I should end myself or not. I know things won’t get better so what’s the point? ​</span></p></div><div class="ExternalClassA50CD8A9EF014790A2B7A32FBBCA7894"><p><span style="font-family:tahoma;font-size:17.3333px;">Thanks for writing in. You have been through a lot. It is ok and even healthy to express your feelings. We understand how unbelievably difficult it must be to deal with the feelings of anger and sadness that you have following the loss of your mother. This is a lot to try to deal with for someone of any age but especially someone who is only 14 years old. You have had to deal with many things that most 14 year olds have no idea about. Through all of this have you had a chance to get professional support through a doctor or counselor? If you have not had a chance to do this, we can help you find this.</span></p><p><span style="font-family:tahoma;font-size:17.3333px;">It sounds like you are trying to find happiness again and at times, things do seem to be better. This is kind of how grief goes. It is kind of like water in the ocean. Sometimes the waves are intense and you feel overwhelmed by them and then other times things seem to be going better as if the water is just gently lapping at the shore. During those intense times, we have counselors available to help you. Our phones are answered 24/7/365. You can talk to us any time at 1-800-448-3000. By talking things through and getting support you will eventually learn new skills on how to cope through your pain. When you have a lot of grief and trauma like you have experienced, your self-talk can become very negative. Try to speak kindly to yourself. We have a couple of tips to help you with this:</span></p><p><a href="/Pages/grief.aspx"><span style="font-family:tahoma;font-size:17.3333px;">http://www.yourlifeyourvoice.org/Pages/grief.aspx</span></a><span style="font-family:tahoma;font-size:17.3333px;"> </span></p><p><a href="/Pages/tip-101-positive-things-to-say-to-myself.aspx?Topic=Self%20Esteem"><span style="font-family:tahoma;font-size:17.3333px;">http://www.yourlifeyourvoice.org/Pages/tip-101-positive-things-to-say-to-myself.aspx?Topic=Self%20Esteem</span></a><span style="font-family:tahoma;font-size:17.3333px;"> </span></p><p><span style="font-family:tahoma;font-size:17.3333px;">Through all of this, we want your safety to be the highest priority. We know sometimes those negative thoughts tell you that you should not keep going with your life, but nothing could be further from the truth. The truth is people care about you. There are people that are reaching out to you with hugs and compliments. Rely on the supportive people in your life. We care and we would be honored to be part of your support team. Please consider making a safety plan so you know what to do and who to call when times look dark:</span></p><p><a href="/Pages/tip-your-safety.aspx?Topic=Suicidal%20Thoughts"><span style="font-family:tahoma;font-size:17.3333px;">http://www.yourlifeyourvoice.org/Pages/tip-your-safety.aspx?Topic=Suicidal%20Thoughts</span></a><span style="font-family:tahoma;font-size:17.3333px;"> </span></p><p><a href="/Pages/tip-dont-give-up.aspx?Topic=Suicidal%20Thoughts"><span style="font-family:tahoma;font-size:17.3333px;">http://www.yourlifeyourvoice.org/Pages/tip-dont-give-up.aspx?Topic=Suicidal%20Thoughts</span></a><span style="font-family:tahoma;font-size:17.3333px;"> </span></p><p><span style="font-family:tahoma;font-size:17.3333px;">We are here anytime you would like to talk. </span></p><p><span style="font-family:tahoma;font-size:17.3333px;">Sara, Counselor</span><br></p></div>14

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