Bulletin Board Post

Suicide

Really, Really Done

<div class="ExternalClass21B03BE3F8FE4DEAB1607B87F68DF8E1">Hi... so I've gotten really really close to ending my life a couple of times, but tonight's was really close. I have a therapist, and I'm trying to be more honest but I still don't say anything about myself wanting to end my life. Today it turns out that this girl I know is trying to make one of my 3 friends not talk to me anymore, and people are finding out and wondering what I DID. Then I had a panic attack in 2nd because of a teacher ranting and hitting things. And then I come home to yelling like usual, and then my boyfriend said that his parents told him to break up with me. He didn't but now we can't see each other in person and we can't text or FaceTime unless it's really early or really late, and we won't be able to see each other in person at all for at least a month. He is always the one to calm me down when I want to end my life, which seems to be a ton lately. And I'm just really really done. Thanks... sorry to bother you. </div>

<div class="ExternalClass39EA8C85EAC6497DBC275106D0572DAB"><div><div class="ExternalClass21B03BE3F8FE4DEAB1607B87F68DF8E1">We are so glad you reached out to us. We know it is tough to open up and share your feelings. You are being very brave. You are going through so much all at once and it seems you don’t have a lot of support. It is great you have a wonderful boyfriend, but, it sounds like that is also being limited on how much you can see him. Suicidal thoughts are scary. If you feel at any point that you are not able to stay safe and that your feelings are too much for you, call us or reach out to another adult right away. You said you have a therapist but you don’t share everything with her. I hope after opening up to us you will reconsider and let her know how badly you are feeling. Your therapist is there to help you. The fact that you want to end your life is something she needs to know. She can discuss this with you and give you ideas on how to stop those thoughts and have hope again. There is a lot going on with your friendships, family and school. This can be very overwhelming. When it comes to your friends; believe in yourself. Know that you aren’t doing anything and others don’t know what is happening, so, ignore the people that are wondering what you did. Be honest with your friends and see how your friends act. You deserve to be respected by others. Let them know you don’t want drama and just want to be friends. You deserve that in friends. It sounds like you have situations with family and teachers where they was yelling and the situation probably was not the best. That is very stressful for anyone to be around and can create a lot of anxiety. If you can, get out of those rooms and go to a place where you don’t have to be in the same area. Do things to take care of yourself. Sometimes adults don’t act the best and make mistakes. Try to talk about your feelings with your parents and teachers when things are quiet and calm. Hopefully they will hear you out and be understanding of your feelings. If you need to talk further or feel that they are not listening, call us, your feelings are important and need to be heard. There is so much that can change and we want to help you by having someone to talk with and have counselors available to support you. Take care of yourself every day and tell yourself positive things you like about yourself and things you are grateful for. Remind yourself you will be ok and by talking about your feelings you can get through anything. Be safe and hope we will hear from you soon. If you can, call us and visit our website we have a lot of help for you and you are not alone. Take care, be safe, Anne, Counselor </div></div> </div>

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