Bulletin Board Post

Feelings

I Lost Myself

<div class="ExternalClass36E29FF727884114A9CCC8B5FE984BEB">Ever since I lost my best friend I lost myself. This girl, my friend, helped me so much and I've tried over and over again to try and fix things with her. She just has given up on me like everyone else has. When she left I started hanging out with the bad kids, doing bad stuff, getting in trouble, coming home sitting in bed thinking about everything because I'd be in trouble/grounded. I had all day and night to think and sometimes I just wanna run, run away, leave everything behind. I've even thought of killing myself. I just don't know what to do. It all started by one thing and now I'm just nothing to anyone besides the kids I get in trouble with. I don't wanna be this kid but I'm just so hurt and doing the things that we do, make me happy in the moment. </div>

<div class="ExternalClassD6E55C439A674DC19C208052F872517E"><div><div class="ExternalClass36E29FF727884114A9CCC8B5FE984BEB">We are glad you are reaching out for support. It sounds like you have been through a lot of stress with friends and trying to find a good crowd with which to make friends. Finding positive friends can be difficult at your age as everyone is trying to figure themselves out. It sounds like you are trying to figure out who you are. This is definitely a challenge you have been faced with, but many have faced the same feat. You do not have to be someone you do not like. It might take time to figure out how to be someone you like, but by reaching out and talking it through you might find this person more easily. Though it gets frustrating, keep searching. You are out there somewhere. It is a tough time and feelings of wanting to disappear are understandable when you feel like you are not in the right place. Please understand that ending your life is not worth the risk of never figuring yourself out. If you feel you cannot be safe from these thoughts of ending your life, we urge you to reach out for help immediately. There are many years ahead of you and many opportunities to learn about yourself. We are here to talk to you about this journey, as well as about any suicidal thoughts you might be having, any time. You are welcome to email us or call our 24/7 hotline at 1 800 448 3000. Take care of yourself and keep reaching out. Sincerely, MH, counselor </div></div> </div>

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