Bulletin Board Post

Feelings

No Idea What To Do Anymore

<div class="ExternalClass07FBE4CCE0B34CA9A2FBA4CBDC07C5E8">Where to begin. I think I'm depressed, or just a sad person, I'm not sure. Half of the time I feel like crying or sleeping because then if I'm asleep the world goes on and I don't have to be a part of it. During the day I feel no motivation. I don't feel like communicating with anyone, but I feel alone. People ask if I wanna hang out and I say no. My mom talks to me and I ignore her. She annoys me so much lately and I don't know why. When I'm at college I miss home but when I'm home I hate it. I feel like I've lost my reason to live. I wouldn't say I'm suicidal but I just don't feel like being here. At night I can't sleep, I'm stressed about school & I wonder if I'll ever find a guy who loves me. There's this guy that I used to have a crush on for ever & he told me he liked me and we had sex once and i opened up to him and told him all my dreams and fears but he never talked to me after that. And he says he still likes me but can't be with me & it makes me feel so self conscious and I feel like I need to be this cool person with my friends so I tell lies because I feel like I need to make my life sound exciting & all my friends are dating people & it sucks to be the loner one. And I feel used and unappreciated and I need to let this out. My parents always call me out about my weight but I can't help it. My self esteem is so low & there are days when it's high or at least I pretend it's high because that's the only way to get out of the house it's to pretend to be someone I'm not & I think I've lost myself & I have no idea what to do anymore & I just want to be myself and be confident & feel loved. I feel like crying but nothing comes out. I can't breathe and I get anxiety attacks all the time & I don't know anymore. </div>

<div class="ExternalClass472814EFC633430E8327A94DBA955763"><div><div class="ExternalClass07FBE4CCE0B34CA9A2FBA4CBDC07C5E8">So glad you reached out for support today, it sounds like you have a lot on your mind. It’s great that you want to release all of these thoughts and feelings, it takes so much strength to do that. It sounds like you’re having a pretty tough time with a number of things in your life right now. With so much going on it’s understandable if you’re feeling pretty overwhelmed. It’s hard to continue to push yourself and stay motivated when you’re so upset and sad the majority of the time. But even writing this email takes a lot of strength, so you definitely have it in you. How long have you been feeling this way? It sounds like you’ve been kind of isolating yourself and not spending time with the people you care about. Sometimes doing that can add to our depression and sad thoughts. How would you feel about taking your friends up on their offers to go out? Maybe even something small like getting lunch. Your friends are your support system, do you feel comfortable talking with them? You had stated that you no longer feel like you have a reason to live. Searching for that reason can be frustrating at times. But it sounds like you have a really good head on your shoulders, and have a lot going for you. Just sometimes we lose track of that. What do you think you could do to help yourself find that reason again? We have a list that we would like you start working on, it will help you to reorder some of the things in your life so you can make your emotional health a priority: <a href="/Pages/tip-Emotional-Health-Checklist.aspx">http://www.yourlifeyourvoice.org/v2/Pages/tip-Emotional-Health-Checklist.aspx</a>. We really hope talking about things and getting the stress off your chest has been helpful for you. If you would like to talk to one of our counselors, we are here for you anytime. Be careful to stay ahead of your negative thoughts. If ever those thoughts start to overwhelm you and you feel that you are not able to stay safe, reach out right away; talk to a friend, a family member or one of our counselors. What are some other things you enjoy doing? This is all easier said than done, but do you think you could try and reintegrate those things back into your life? Sometimes bringing back those fond memories can help with depression. Good luck with everything and keep reaching out for support. You are such a strong young lady, keep pushing yourself, you’ve got this. Sincerely, Sara, crisis counselor </div></div> </div>

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