When i was 5 til i was 13 i was sexually abused by my stepdad who was also a drug addict. every time he did this i felt lyk i was dyin alil inside. i could neva tell my mom because she would couldnt handle it.
For such along time i was so angrey & depressed i didnt kno wat to do, no one knew i held it in. I thought mayb it would go away if i ignored it, i tried to run away i began drinkin n partyin. puttin on a happy act, lyk everythin was fine n nothin eva went wrong in my life.
i was depressed n i hated myself, i blamed myself for everythin that happen. i had no one to talk to...n i was oo ashamed to tell anyone i didnt want ppl too think that i was stupid n i felt dirty.
til i found my one saving grace...i accepted Jesus Christ...n through him i was able to forgive my stepdad & move on, letting go of my past n all it's trama. all the anger that i felt all the hatred i had left n now i accept that it happen n that it wasnt my fualt.
I realize now that i couldnt control wat had happen in the past, But i have the strenght to take charge of my future n never b the victim of anyone.
What i have been through has made me strong n i want my stro to be heard that evn though u had a bad childhood n u were a victim, u have to deal wit it head on, & have the courage to move on & break the cycle of hurt n pain once n for all.
"We know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."
Even though this was a bad exprience, i realize that God turned this into a blessing cuz now i can help people who have been through th same thing.