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Edited: 9/8/2009 9:40 AM by
Please Please Please Help me
Ever since fifth grade I felt terrible. It seemed like everywhere I turned someone was talking about me or spreading rumors, or just generally avoiding me. I tired to just accept it and push everyone away and I felt content that I could just keep going like that and all would be well. Until recently, it was OK, I didn't express anything to anyone, but as time went on I found myself crying more and more. Eventually I found myself thinking of running away and even suicide.

   I've tried talking to my family subtly about it, but my mother can't focus on anything, Me and my father's relationship is too rocky to talk to him and my sister always just pushed me away verbally whenever I tried talking to her.

  Things got worse over the years. I found myself adding more and more reasons to just leave the house, or the mortal world. Adding things like my lack of real talent, or the fact that I can't find anyone that I can really call a Friend of my own. Although the years have passed I still find myself unable to really talk to my family. I remembered the commercials and decided that maybe I could come try talking to a counsler or something. So they could help me find a reason not to feel like a complete waste of skin. Please... PleasePleasePlease healp me
Edited: 9/14/2009 8:23 AM by


Not being able to share your feelings with someone is tough!  It sounds like you have had some pretty intense feelings over the years, and now you mention you have thoughts of suicide.  Please know that what you are not alone:  We are here!!  What could be helpful for you now, its to try talking to someone.  Like you did now, you sent a message to us--letting us know what is going on with you;  you can also call--anytime!  We have counselors available 24/7.  You may find that talking about what you are feeling and gaining support for yourself, will help you cope better.  You are very young and at a stage in your life, where you are a young adult (really) and asking for help is very mature--it shows that you are very aware of what you are feeling and you know that something needs to change.  It can change for the better; and there are so many positive choices you can make to help you cope with all of these feelings.
It is true:  trying to talk to family can be very difficult and awkward.  But think of it this way, they are not mind readers.  If you are able to share with them what is going on with you, and what you have been thinking about--running away and suicidal thoughts--then they will be able to help you.  If they do not know--they can not help.  Be very specific about what is going on, if you choose to talk to your mom or your dad.  It is understandable if the relationship you have with them seems to be difficult at times, but as in any relationship--its good to communicate and share feelings regardless of what is going on.
Lets face it:  running away is never a good option.  It really does not solve anything.  And suicidal thoughts/feelings can be pretty intense--if you are feeling like this now, please reach out and call us-(or write back if you feel more comfortable)

Take care, and we do want to help you!! 

Kara-Counselor