It is a very powerful statement that you make when you say that you love both of your parents. You certainly have the right to do that and loving them both is never a betrayal of the other. A custody battle unfortunately can cause children to feel caught in the middle of their parents affection for them. They feel they have to choose one or the other. You don't have to make that choice. You are free to love them both.

Giving your opinion on where you want to live is not about if you love one parent more than the other it is about where is the best place for you to live for your own wellness. If your father is in an abusive relationship that would indicate that is not the best place for you to live.

The abusive relationship he is in is his responsibility to work out or get out of if it's not workable. It is not in your welfare to be subjected to the abusive relationship with his girlfriend. It is very healthy of you to reach out and talk about your feelings and concerns. We are concerned about your statement that you are so upset you are thinking about ending it all. Are you saying you are having suicidal thoughts about ending your life because you are so upset about the custody battle?

If you are that is never the choice you want to make. No matter how upset you may be feeling there is always help. Please make a promise to yourself to stay safe and let us know if you feel you cannot do that. You can email us or call us at 1-800-448-3000 24 hours a day. Let us know how you are doing.

Be well,
Grant
Hotline Counselor