Wow, you must be a very creative young lady. It sounds like you have really tried to reach out to your father and it just hasn't been working. We are so sorry to hear this. You can do everything in the world to get through to him, but unless he is ready to receive the message, than it may not ever work. but we encourage you to keep trying. One thing that can help is to always approach him about these issues in a positive way.
If you attack him or yell at him, it is very likely that he will not hear what you are saying, he will only hear that you are angry, which will put him immediately on the defensive. Have you ever tried writing out how you are feeling to him? Sometimes by writing letters or emails back and forth, you can have more effective communication. Not only can you then review it so you write exactly what you want, but then you can also give the other person time to read the whole thing, think it over, and then write back or converse with you in a calm and collected way without getting too emotional.
Another tactic you can try is to talk to somebody else that he knows and respects. Tell them you are having trouble communicating with you and see if they can help you. they may be able to talk with him directly or they may be able to help you come up with effective ways to communicate with your dad. Can you think of anybody who may be able to help you with this? Maybe you and whoever you find could even speak with your dad together about your feelings. Sometimes it can help to get a third person in on the conversation.
We are glad to hear that you are working so hard at attempting to rekindle this relationship with your father. Please don't hesitate to call our hotline at anytime if you need to talk further about this!