What a tough situation! We are so glad you are reaching out for support. We are sorry to hear your mother is putting you through this. By law, parents are to provide basic needs for their children (food, shelter, and clothing). It sounds like your mother is not providing for you and this needs to be reported to Child Protective Services (CPS). Is there an adult in your life that you can reach out to (grandmother, aunt, pastor, or school counselor)?
It is important that you find that support person to help you deal with what you are going through. If no one knows then no one can help you. We think it is a very good idea that you (appropriately) let your mother know how you feel, and we do not want her to get into trouble with CPS. Maybe having that supportive person with you while you talk with her might make it easier.
We understand that things are not going very well, but do you think running away is your best option? Keep in mind that if you do run away, the police will be contacted and anyone who lets you stay with them can be charged with harboring a run away. So, now not only are you dealing with the running away, but getting others in trouble, and giving yourself a bad record with the police.
Chris, Crisis Counselor