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Edited: 8/4/2011 11:30 AM by
It Is Not A Phase
I'm not so sure what to say, but to tell you that I don't know what to do anymore. I hate myself. I hate my life. I feel like I just hate everyone at times. I want to end it. I don't want to live. I need help I know. I fear this is my only way to get it.
 
I've tried to talk with my mother, but all she does is mock me, and tell me I'm going through a phase.
I've cut myself. I feel like I need that pain. I don't think it's a phase. My mother won't help me. My closest friend tells me she's there for me, but never truly is. I don't know what to do. Help? Please.
Edited: 8/4/2011 11:30 AM by
Thanks for reaching out to us tonight! It sounds like you are going through an extremely difficult and painful time. You're right, its probably not a phase you are going through. Its wonderful that you've reached out and told your mom what's been going on. That can be a very tough thing to do; you should be very proud of yourself for having the strength and courage to do so. That's awesome!

It sounds like maybe your mother isn't really aware of what's going on with you or how serious the situation is. Cutting can be a very tough thing to stop doing; a lot of people cut to relieve pain because they feel the physical pain is better to deal with then the emotional pain they are going through.
 
Once you start cutting, it can be a very tough thing to overcome, because it becomes a habit, an addiction, and that's a tough thing to stop. It sounds like this is what you're dealing with now.

It would be a good idea to talk to your mom again. Let her know that things have gotten worse, and now, rather than only cutting, you're having thoughts of wanting to end your life. Ask her if you guys can make an appointment with a therapist or counselor so that you can work on overcoming this and feeling better. Having the support of a counselor/therapist would be very helpful in working on getting through this.

Please don't do anything to end your life. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary situation. What you're going through now is not how its always going to be. Things will get better, but you've got to stick around though, to see that happen. Do you think that you can be safe and not do anything to end your life? You're going through a lot right now, and we are very worried about you.
 
Please tell your mom that you're thinking about suicide. You don't deserve to go through anything alone, and you don't need  to. See if talking to your mom helps, and you can make an appointment to see a therapist. That would give you the support you need so you don't feel like you're going through this alone. Please email us back and let us know that you are safe! We are very worried about you. Hang in there.

Melissa, Counselor
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