We are glad you are reaching out today.
Loosing a love one can be very difficult to handle. It takes lots of support and strength to deal with the loss. It sounds like you have been struggling since your friend passed. Depression can often follow a traumatic experience such as a loved one dying.
Just know that you don't have to suffer alone. Please let a loved one or another trusted adult know how you feel. Suicide isn't the answer to sadness and loss. You no longer get to enjoy relationships with family and other friends. The people who love you would be hurt. Your personal goals don't get achieved. It is normal to be sad and hurt. It is time to consult a counselor for help with your feelings.
Please make a promise to yourself to stay safe today. We are available 24 hours daily. Please call us at 1-800-448-3000 to talk about your depression and how to get help. We want to help you get better.