We are so sorry that you are feeling this way. Eating disorders are very tricky things and we are glad that you are seeking out treatment. Try not to worry about the finances involved in the situation, they will work themselves out one way or another, simply focus on getting the help that you need with your bulimia and anorexia, they are very difficult disorders to manage. Have you ever been to www.something-fishy.org? It is a fabulous site that is dedicated to supporting those who are suffering from eating disorders. Please check it out, there is some great resources there and some great networks that you could tap into.

First, we would like to encourage you to call our hotline if you ever need additional help in coping with your suicidal ideation. We are available at our hotline 24 hours a day and we would be happy to hear from you at anytime. Our counselors talk to people who are feeling suicidal each and everyday and sometimes just having somebody to talk with can get you a long way in feeling better. If you ever feel like you will not be able to remain safe and think you may hurt yourself, it is imperative that you give us a call!

It sounds like people know about your eating disorders because of the treat you have received and continue to either get or seek. We hope you can share with somebody about your suicidal thoughts as well. Whether it is a family member, friend, teacher, or counselor at school, suicidal thoughts are simply to heavy to carry around all by yourself. You would benefit from sharing how you feel with somebody else. You could even tell the therapists or psychologists that you work with in your Eating Disorders treatment, they likely will able to help you better than anybody. You deserve to feel better and the first step to feeling better is to reach out for help. Please find the courage to do so.

The other thing you can do to try and cope with your emotional pain is to tap into some good coping skills. These are things that you can do to either release feelings or distract yourself from the emotional pain, or do something that you enjoy and are proud of. I see that your email address is peaceluvdance, are you a dancer? Dancing can be a great way to express yourself. Whether it is choreographing a dance to a favorite song or taking a class, dance can be a powerful way to express yourself and it can make you feel better as well. Be sure to do so healthily though, and make sure you are eating enough in order to do the strenuous work that can come with dancing. Other positive coping skills can be spending time with a pet, writing, drawing, painting, volunteering, or listening to music. We hope you can find healthy things to do when you feel bad so that you can feel better.

Take care!

Counselor, Dominic