Glad you are reaching out for help. That is the first step and now you have taken it! It is great that you care about what your Father thinks of you.
Are you able to talk with him about how you are feeling? Sometimes it helps if you are able to ask if he ever felt like this when he was your age.
You have got to talk to someone. Is there an adult in your life that you trust with your feelings?

Your comment about "ending it all" is very concerning. Is this a new thought or have you been thinking about ending your life for a while? Please know that you don't have to consider that as your only option for dealing with your emotional pain.
There is someone who can help and support you during this time. Let us help you find them.

Please let us know how you are doing and if there is someone who you think you can talk to.

Pat, Counselor