I'm scared about school! Lately my grades have been DOWN THE TOILET! I'm really scared! I'm getting less than 70 in all my academic class, and I'm freaking out! My parents don't seem to notice the report cards THAT THEY SIGN, but I'm not putting blame on anyone.
It has to be something I'm doing (or not doing). Everyone (both students AND teachers) tell me how smart I am particularly in History and Biology, but you wouldn't be able to tell by looking at my grades. I've been thinking about college, and I'm pursuing getting good enough grades for a school of music or conservatory, but my band director tells me I need good grades throughout high school (prominently 90s).
I'm FREAKING OUT! what if I flunk in high school, and don't get into a good college? What if I become a failure? I study, I pay attention in class (not always the easiest task), but the main problem seems to be homework, which I seem to be missing. There are so many distractions at home, and staying after with a teacher is so tiring.
I feel like there are two parts of my being: one that wants success, and will stop at nothing to get it, and then the half that just says "screw it, go home and play video games, who needs grades?", and they're constantly battling for supremacy over my conscious. how do I get my grades up for high school? HELP!