Lately, I've been dealing with trying to balance school, home, and not having any one to talk to. In the beginning of the school year I went to this school, and I was sick. I kept missing all these days that really messed me up. I got a lot of zeros, so I had to go back to home school, which is where I was before. After the first semester was over, we moved.
I decided I wanted to go back to school, and give it another try because I missed talking with friends, and having different courses, and classes to choose from. I was there for like two weeks, and it was really hard for me to do the work. I had to be put back in to two classes I took the first semester because they were different then home school classes. I failed the tests they gave me in order to get back into public school.
So instead of doing two hard classes, and two electives. I had to do all hard classes. It was harder on me than everybody else. I was new, and I had a lot of catching up to do. They were piling the homework on every night. It was even worse because they were trying to cram everything in, and with very little time because of all the days we missed because of the snow. I felt like I wasn't learning well because I didn't get the time like everybody else.
Being homeschooled kind of brought me down a bit. So now, I had to go to being home schooled again. I try so hard to get an understanding of school, but it's so hard. I study every night trying to comprehend what I'm doing, but I just can't seem to ever remember. I loved the school, and my teacher's. That's why it was so hard for me to go back. I had to make a decision based on what would be right for myself.
It's really stressful on my behalf because I feel like I have nobody to talk to about this, and nobody really understands what I am going through. I feel like I'm dumb or I don't know why I just can't seem to learn anything. I used to be an a/b student, and I don't understand what happened, and that's what kills me the most. I want so badly to go to college, but I just can't get it! I wonder if something is wrong with me.