Hi,

Glad to hear that you are doing well.  The beginning of a new school year makes most kids anxious (teachers too - ha!).  Some of that is a good anxiety or really just the excitement of the unknown.  But all anxiety give you butterflies.  It sounds like this 10th grade guy is what is triggering a lot of your anxious feelings right now. 

Sorry that you didn't get the answer you were looking for from him.  It hurts when you get turned down.  Know that not all guys are going to do that to you though, and that you most likely will have to turn a guy or two down at one point too. 

The bus ride may not be so bad.  Do you have a friend that rides the same bus? Plan in advance so that you can sit together.  Always bring along something to do when you are on the bus to keep your mind occupied too.  It can be music, your homework, a sketch book, just something that you can keep yourself busy with if you get nervous with this guy on your bus.  It might take a few weeks for this nervousness to wear off, but it will go away. 

Remember you are not the only one anxious about school.  It will be new for each new Freshman.  High school is a great opportunity to widen your circle of friends and try out new activities.  Don't let your anxiousness stop you from getting involved with something you love or that interests you.  I wish you the best of luck on your first day.

Take care,

Laura - Crisis Counselor