We are so sorry that you are suffering so much at school. It sounds as though you have been dealing with this for some time. It is very difficult to get through the day when you are suffering so much anxiety from what is occurring between you and your classmates. We are glad you are emailing us and that you have called us in the past. Although it doesn't solve your problems it can help just to have somebody listen and provide emotional support, which we are happy to provide.
With the large number of troubles you are experiencing, we hope you are able to sit down and talk with a counselor. We know that your parents haven't come up with too much helpful information for you a counselor may be just the thing to help you organize your thoughts and map out how you can respond to your emotions in a safe and healthy way.
Cutting is a very dangerous behavior and we are sorry that you are having to resort to that for whatever reason. Some people cut to help cope with emotional pain, some cut because they feel numb unless they are cutting, some cut because they are addicted to it, whatever the reason it is important to find a different way to handle the reason that you are cutting. Then you can replace the cutting behavior with something else. Some people take an ice cube and hold it against their skin for as long as they can against their skin on the place that they usually cut. This can provide a sensation similar to cutting without breaking the skin. Some listen to music that soothes them. Some journal and some work on art. Some spend time with a pet or close friend. We hope that one of these works for you. Your cutting behavior concerns us.
Also be sure you always report the bullying that you are experiencing at school to your teachers and school counselors. Telling them might not make it stop, but if you don't tell then we can guarantee that they will not stop. Talk to the adults at your school about things that they or you could do to help with the students who are picking on you. You don't deserve that. Continue to reach out and be open to trying different things to get it to stop.
We wish you luck and hope you can continue to email and call us and let us know how you are doing!