It can really be hard growing up and figuring out who you want to be as a person. All of the things you are going through are completely normal, even talking to yourself!
Making friends is a difficult thing to do, especially when you feel you do not have similar interests. Do not give up hope, you will find people that you can connect with, it may take some work on your part, but you can have close friends. In order to open up to people you have to get to know them first, remember they do not need to know everything about you right away. Opening up and telling others about yourself is completely up to you.
Are you involved in anything at school? Look and see what types of clubs and organizations are available to you to join. This is a great way to meet people with similar likes and you can decide which people you would like to get to know more about.
Another person who can really help you in this area is your school counselor. They are available to you anytime and have the resources needed to help you with gaining confidence and opening up. Think about stopping in there and talking with them on Monday.
We are glad to hear that you are close with your family, have you told them some of the ways you have been feeling? Maybe if they knew how lonely you were feeling they would be able to give you some extra support. It is not easy to ask for help but in order to start feeling better you will have to reach out to someone. Your family loves you and they cannot help you if they do not know how you are really feeling.
It is good to hear that you do not have suicidal thoughts anymore, did you ever get as far as trying anything to hurt yourself? Having such scary thoughts and feeling alone is not a good combination. How did you get yourself through it? You are a very brave and courageous person to get through it by yourself! We hope that if you ever start feeling suicidal again you would reach out to us and let us know before you did anything to hurt yourself. Always know we are here to support you and hope that by writing down how you are feeling has helped you relieve some of your stress. We look forward to hearing from you!
Take Care,
Andria, Counselor