Nine months ago I made the biggest mistake of my life. I cheated on my boyfriend that I absolutely love. I never thought I would do that because that is NOT me at all. I really don't know why I did it. I guess because my boyfriend is the only boyfriend I ever have had, and have ever kissed and I guess I was just curious.
I regret what I did so bad. Well, I told him 3 months ago and he was very mad and upset. We seemed to be getting through it together and everything was ok and good. Until last week he went to the state fair with his friend. The whole morning he was fine.
Then he just randomly texted me he wasn't interested in me anymore and just wanted to be friends. I was devastated and couldn't believe it. I didn't know what to do. I found out he had met another girl and they talked for a couple hours and then she hugged and kissed him.
His friend had absolutely nothing to do with it. Then, a couple days passed and he started to regret what he did really bad. He wanted me back and so did I. We both made mistakes and we both regret them really bad and we both know we need each other. So we are back together now. But, everybody says I shouldn't have went back to him.
He makes me happy and he is the most understanding, nice, and caring guy ever. I just don't know what to do because I don't know if I should've stayed friends with him or gotten back together. I look back and he has never hurt me before. Everybody keeps saying I can totally find someone better but I don't know. I like being with him. People also say we are too attached but we HARDLY spend time with each other. My life doesn't all revolve around him, it revolves around many other things too.
They just don't know what it's like. I look back and think about it and there seems like there was something missing in that relationship, I just don't know what. He's my best friend and I can tell him anything and he will understand. We have both gotten closer and understand each other a lot more. I just don't know if he knows how to be in a relationship quite yet. I think we will be a lot better because then we can spend time with each other just him and I. I just need some help and advice on what to do.
I mean maybe I should just give it some time and see how it goes because I want to be with him. Just everybody else just doesn't understand. So can I have some advice and help. I'm stressed out and don't know what to do about all this. I've tried to ignore people, they just don't know the situation.