Going through relationship drama and trying to cope with the feelings when things start to go downhill are both things that just about all of us struggle with. You obviously like this guy and want a relationship with him. The question you need to ask yourself is pretty simple: why do you like this boy?
This is a question that you should ask yourself whenever you start to develop feelings for somebody. What qualities, traits, behaviors, or beliefs of theirs have led you to think they are a quality person and worth developing feelings for. Granted, a lot of the time you can't control who you have feelings for...but you can control whether or not you pursue these feelings.
Take some time to think about this boy. What qualities does he have that you are looking for in a guy? Actually, what qualities are you looking for in a guy? Things like trust, honesty, respect, open communication, commitment, and maturity are all things that a lot of people value and look for in a relationship. What are you looking for? Does this boy have these traits?
A lot of people like what they can't have. Do you like this boy for the right reasons, or are you just pursuing somebody you can't have? These are questions that only you are going to be able to answer. Don't feel down on yourself if you decide that you've been wasting your time trying to pursue this boy, a TON of people develop feelings for people they later regret. Like we said, you can't always control who you like. If you decide that this boy doesn't have the traits you are looking for, then it would be a good sign that you need to let go of these feelings.