We are glad you reached out. It sounds like you are really afraid of what your friend will say or do about her seeing your scars. It isn't for certain what she is thinking, but, it could make your friendship closer if you just let her know the truth and why you cut. Also, if you are getting help from others that is also a plus because she won't feel the pressure of making sure you are ok. I am concerned about your cutting and also it sounds like you just wanted someone to see them so you could not feel invisible.That is very concerning.
We know that cutting is a way of dealing with tough emotions if you don't have healthy coping skills or others to help you with those emotions.It sounds like you have been doing this for a while and that it may have become an addiction at this point. We want to help you with your cutting and finding better ways of dealing your tough thoughts and emotions.You feel invisible so, that is concerning why you feel this way and if you aren't getting support or have issues with your relationships with family.
Keeping your friends I know that is your fear at this point, but, making sure you feel strong and healthy without cutting is even more important.You will always have friends and opportunities to meet new wonderful people. It may work out just fine with your friends, but, lets get you some help so you don't feel invisible anymore. We are here for you.
Also, we have a website if you like to online chat we have counselors. You can call us also to talk our number is 1-800-448-3000. Here is a website that helps to understand more about cutting and coping skills www.mirror-mirror.org/self harm our website is www.yourlifeyourvoice.org where there is other information everything including cutting.
We want to know and help you, if you have any adult you can talk with that would be a good thing to do as soon as possible.
Take care and we hope to hear from you,