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Edited: 10/9/2011 11:07 AM
Get Talked About A Lot

I realized tonight that I'm not worth it. Not worth anything. Sadly. My best friend(s) are siblings and all three of them decided to throw me under the bus when someone they wanted to impress said they didn't like me. They just ditched me. No goodbye or anything. I was left in the darkness for THREE MONTHS!

I still am somewhat lost. I've been gaining pounds and nothing seems to get rid of them. More stress. I've been failing in my senior year, and now I will have bad grades to attempt towards college. Great. Every day I sit at home all day, alone. Only having schoolwork to do and chores. I log on to facebook and feel as if I annoy all of the people I talk to. 

I stopped. I stopped going to church. I stopped everything. I just can't fit in with anyone. Anywhere. So many places I go, reject me. I'm not pretty, I'm not smart, I'm not the skinny girl I use to be, I'm nothing. One of my ex best friends goes to a public school, and I get talked about, but for nothing good.

For being good on the mattress, and in the back seat of a car. When it isn't true! I don't even go to public school, and I get bullied for no reason and everyone at her school pitches in. Why? What did I do to have this all crash down?

I use to be the girl everyone wanted. The beautiful blonde, smart, skinny, and amazing. What happened to me? How do I fix myself to be the loved and amazing girl from sophomore year?

Edited: 10/9/2011 11:07 AM

We are glad you are reaching out today. It sounds like you are having a rough time. It is difficult when friendships end and bullying begins. Once one thing negative happens, other things seem to follow.

You deserve for things to get better for you. When life get too overwhelming, it is good to get support from others. Do you have any family or another adult that can help you. It can be helpful to spend time with someone who cares about you. Right now you feel alone and isolated. Let someone know how you feel so you can find solutions to your problems.

Make a list of the things you would like to get better. You mentioned friendships, weight and grades. Loosing friends is difficult and it can take time to overcome the loss. Gaining new friends has a way of helping with the loss. Try getting involved in new activities that are related to hobbies. Church is a great way of meeting friends and being around people. Talk to your parent about going to see a counselor and dietician. They can help you understand how stress and sadness can lead to using food to deal with things. You can learn how to love and accept yourself. A dietician can teach you healthy eating habits. Look at all of your options for colleges. Talk to your school counselor about your concerns. He/She will be able to educate you on different options for college. Please reach out to others for help. Stay in touch and let us know how things are going.

Crisis Counselor,

Valerie.