Thanks so much for taking the time to reach out and send us an email about things at home. We can really tell that you're feeling so down and frustrated right now. It's tough to go through feelings like that by yourself...which is why it was such a good idea to reach out to somebody.
Things feel really overwhelming for you right now, we believe that. It is our hope that you believe things can turn around for you...because they can.
A big way to help yourself get through a difficult time is by finding coping strategies that work for you. In the email you mentioned that you write and like to exercise...those are really excellent things to do to cope. It helps to have a variety though, so what else could you do?
Instead of just writing about your problems, you could write poems or songs about how you feel and how you want to feel. Focusing on how you want to feel can really start to help bring your feelings up.
It also reminds you that other emotions exist and that you CAN feel the way you want. Aside from writing, you could also listen to music, draw, do breathing exercises, or pray. Do any of these seem like some things you could do to cope? It really is important to express and release your feelings. If you leave them sitting inside of you they will just bring you down.
When you talk to your parents about things, what does it usually look like? Do you do a lot of screaming and get emotional? Do you blame your parents, use sarcasm, or start name calling? All of these things just escalate things further and don't lead to healthy conversations. When you talk to your parents about your feelings or problems, try to do so as calmly, politely, and reasonably as possible.
Be open to what they have to say. If you feel yourself getting worked up, there is nothing wrong with politely walking away from the conversation for a few minutes while you calm down. You can always start talking to them later once you've calmed down. Getting upset and letting your emotions get the better of you just leads to saying or doing things you later regret.
Telling your parents about being bullied was a good idea, but it stinks they weren't more receptive to what you had to say. Have you spoken with the teachers or principal at school about the bullying? Drawing some more attention to the situation would be a good way to open your parents' eyes to the truth about the bullying you experience at school. Nobody deserves to be treated that way by their peers. Being bullied hurts. Here is a really helpful link about bullying that could give you a new perspective on some things: